Maybe it's because of my advanced years, and that makes young men and women look at me as a father/grandpa figure.
Each of these instances makes my heart literally hurt. I respond the best way I can; explaining that, no matter how bleak and dark things get, there truly ARE better days ahead, even though it doesn't seem like it.
I don't know how many times I've been able to make any difference for these troubled souls, but I hope it's been at least a few times.
Recently, when a person had reached out to me, it struck me how close in age he was to my own son. The thought of Braxton going through something like this made me physically ill... I don't know how I would ever be able to go on if I lost my boy.
Then it dawned on me that, the one thing I had never pointed out to these people who were in desperate times, is that - no matter what it feels like at the moment - there are people who would be absolutely devastated if they weren't around anymore!
That's a truth for EVERYONE!
So I began writing this song as a means to point out just how completely devastating taking one's own life would be to those they would most want to NEVER hurt!
I have lost friends to suicide, and I wish they could have understood that I would have done anything to keep them with me!... And I wish they would have thought about how deep my hurt would be without them.
I apologize for some of the song, as I was focused on what I would feel if I ever lost Brax to the demons. It's a very difficult and absolutely debilitating thought for me.
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